Hehe!! helluva harebrained

Wrlds a stage ,GODs teh only one to be praised,
Me a pantomime sufferin of bein dazed

My parents bought me in this wrld to glaze,
I'm teh one whuse dyin up as a humbly crazed

Whot else do I need if she cld alwyz b at my aid,
But its jus teh friendship tht she always craves

Wht if she's always in frnt of me,thr fr me,wid me in this wrldly stage,
I knw I'm born not 2 expect nethng frm, whum I wish 2 gaze

M I born to be subdued in fear,agony n blaze,
uh!! GOD plz help coz I'm dyin to sleep in my own grave

Yuuu...yuuu...yuuu...nvr leave a cue

Did I evr mek u feel
how lonely is in real
my heart n its peels
But Yuuu...Yuuu...Yuuu
dont giv it a chill !!

Did I evr show me cry
how can I wave u bye
my instincts r so shy
But Yuuu...Yuuu...Yuuu
wil someday get go ply !!

Wht if u were my peer
my wholesom n my dear
Wish u're always near
But Yuuu...Yuuu...Yuuu
always subduing evry fear !!

Wht if I show me scream
wil u evr feel teh realm
Wil my aching heart evr yearn
But Yuuu...Yuuu...Yuuu
wil nvr dream me grin !!

La Isabelle Dame Sans Merci

Al day I thnk of U,
Al day I dream of u,
But my vein of luv,
nvr reaches u.

Al thngs tht com my way,
Al thngs tht mek my day,
They al strt frm u,
But end up in a dry bay.

I feel lik talkin 2 u,
I feel lik starin at u,
But the fear of bein chastened,
kips me away frm u.

Your smile is lik a smiley as evry man say,
U luk lik a daisy at teh fairies play,
Tell me Y r u so charmin neway,
I doubt U r teh immortal grey!!

O GOD thy son evanesce !!

Life has been a mystry,
I cant flair my history,
It kills deep down wid frustration
and I'm flowin wid time widout ne discretion

The pain thts inflicted on me cant b told,
N I'm no more able 2 hold,
Jus becoz a simpleton once told
U shldn't share ur agony wid those whum U dearly behold

My sis,my nurtures are the one whu've been unspoilt,
N thts teh very reason y I gulp teh pain within,
Teh rest of teh cult hav jus shown wayz 2 sustain a torment
wch smtimes meks me feel I'm bringin up a maniac unseen

My eyes are screamin n my head is achin,
My heart is clogging and my whole is shrinking
I feel lik getin sailed away in my own blood
to some other selflessly aerated world

O GOD plz send smbdy whum I be seeking,
Teh one whu my pain b chatterin,
Coz these downtrodden years of mine
hav seen evryon shaftin n everyon screwin

Felt Fatherly...:O:O:O

h..ha..haa.haaaaa...haaaaaa...haa...ha.h
hey me not a earthly father yet...
stil a bachelor in search of my dream spinster ;)...
it's jus tht many a times I met sm events wch aroused sooooo much of despration fr meetin teh event organizer tht I jus end up in brkin my heart evyr tim :(

Teh first tim I saw this pic......I jus fell in luv wid this sleepin beauty...I wished if I cud adopt this child...n al day keep on seeing her ...n her kiddish activities...Her lips U c ..feel lik playin wid thm al day,movin thm up n down al day...squeezin her cheeks al day to n fro...lik in tht PONDS wala add [googly woogly wrksha...] n she kips on sleepin widout bein gettin disturbed...

Teh nxt incident tht happened was after hearin this song called "celebrate the summer" by Dj cammy...teh lyrics r :

" You're my honey bun, sugarplum, pummy-ummy-umpkin.
You're my sweetie pie!
You're my cuppie-cake, gumdrop,
smickle-boo-spuckums. You're the apple of my eye!
And i love you so, and i want you to know that
i'll always be right here.
And i love to sing theses songs to you because you
are so dear. "
Soooooooo cute...soooooo sweet...soooooo heavenly I felt...this was nxt tim I felt eager to meet this kid n brng her home ...n kip on listenin to her voice fr evr n evr n evr...

Teh nxt is this pic......wch I met sm dayz ago in teh album of one of my frnd on orkut...
I'm jus in luv wid this baby...again teh same old stry...very very cute...
teh pupils are lik black colored marble balls studded within earthen lamps[Deepaks/Diyas I mean...iski English nai aati mujhe :( ]..seems lik a creation at Madame Taushad...lik made of wax...so beautifully carved each portion of teh face...
the nose lik...lik..dunno whot but sooooo cute...lips...ummmmmmm...feel lik ticklin thm up n down al day...n she kips makin such cute surprising faces...Wish I cld get a digicam n kip on shuting evry minute gesture n monoaction tht this cutie performs..record her voice...record her cute lil face...record her cute lil eyes,her nose..her lips...jus shes sits infrnt of me n I kip starin her al day n nite...n teh time passes by...:|...feelin envy upon her mom,her dad,her other lucky family members fr bein so lucky...:x

I wish I cld meet ne of these...n now I can surely say tht if at al earth is beautiful thn its becoz of these cute lil beins...I owe thm fr makin this wrld so heavenly...I wil surely go forward to teh respective parents n ask fr lettin me adopt their child...I'm damn sure I can tek teh responsibility of being a gud father...but...teh fact remains teh same,tht I can't hav thm :|...Poor me!! :(

Had I Had a Crush???? :O :O :O :O :O :O

She was lik a fairy lady...
So graceful,charmin was she...
She was lik teh barbie dol...wch my sis used 2 play wid...
She was lik snow white whum I met 4 years ago in my English buk...
She was jus lik sayin al day long "Wow...U luk gorgeous..."
She was tough taller thn me...but I had no regrets coz I knew by tim, I'll evn grow taller...
Her face was 2 cute...her eyes those big big and perfectly shaped lik those of goddess Durga durin teh festivals...
Her skin so fair,she didn't hav any affair...hehehe
She was jus teh perfect one to go out on a date wid...
Her skin wasn't tht whitish...but used to shine,glisten in teh Sunlite...
She was jus lik Portia n wished I cld b her Bassanio...
She was Suzane/Sazzane Curie...
Didn't knw bout teh wrd sexy...else I wld hav qouted tht 2 her...
Didn't knw tht whether it was infatuation or crush but it was smthng,
due 2 wch my head,my eyes,my ears unknwingly used to stare her whnevr she crossed...
Her smile...GOD !! u wld jus fall in luv wid...
Whn she used 2 smile...ummmmmmmm!!!
JUS was teh perfect one...was lik a photogenic portrait...
N figure...didn't explroe at tht tim...don't remember..but yes wld have been teh best around...
oh!! did I tell U tht she was my class teacher in my 5th standard...:O
She came durin teh strt of 5th standard...
Since I used 2 be taller among al in my class...
so used 2 stand at the last...durin assembly,durin prayers n durin P.T. n n in marks also[:(]...
Our P.T. used to happen on Wednesday....
we used 2 wear white dress on evry Wednesday...
Durin P.T.(Physical Trainig yaar :X) ,
our class teachers used to stand at teh back of teh respective classes...
She was dressed in white Saree(SHe used to b in ssaree...cldn't understnd tht tim as 2 Y in this young age of 20 she wld b wearin saree...mayb coz she was a teacher thn...)
Lollllllllz...She was al drapped in white...It was lik she wld tek a wand out of smwhr n roll it ovr me...n thn we wld be flyin higher higher n higher away frm those borin teachers,those heavy bags,those big fat buks,those scoldin frm my mom for not scorin gud marks n all...
Luckily she didn't stnd at the bck of my class(utlimately behind me)...She stud behind a class adjacent to mine(mayb teh class teacher fr teh later was absent
)
While doin P.T.,I was feelin borin after hearin those repeated steps named (1,2,3,4)...bringin my hands up n down,legs forward n bckward...
So, I jus turned my head 360...n stuck!!!....I cldn't move my head frm one particular direction...tht was She...my class teacher...
I was doin P.T. fine coz subconciously I knew tht teh same steps wld b repeated fr a certain interval...
So, I was starin at her...starin n starin n starin...n jus starin...dunno Y...but cldn't hlp my self in movin my eyes away frm her..
She saw...n laughed...GOD!! was it a miracle...Boy!! She laughed...her teeths shined lik hell..Her pinkish lips were lik killin!!!
N she was jus laughin....Suddnely she spoke..."Amit Wht r U lukin at...Why r u starin at me??"...
I didn't knw much bout al this crush or infatuation thn...n also didn't knw wht 2 reply....So, I smiled n felt a bit shy(coz after all she was senior 2 me...I was 10 n she was 20)
n thn continued my P.T....
didn't get 2 talk 2 her 2 much...
But thn whn I entered my 6th I came 2 knw tht she had left...
I didn't cr tht much...Didn't hav a hearthache evn...wasn't tht serious bout her evn...
but thn ovr years I hav felt tht her picture still persists...I mean if I were a painter I cld paint her face netime asked 2...:|

In my dreams I'm Gng out of my mind

My fav lyrics of al times...

In my dreams I'm dying al teh tim
As I wake its kaleidoscopic mind
I nvr meant to hurt U
I nvr meant to lie
So this is gudbye
Tis is gudbye

Tel teh truth U nvr wantd me
Tel me

In my dreams I'm jealous al teh tim
As I wake I'm gng out of my mind
Gng out of my mind
------------------Moby-Porcelain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1Fcaro25Ek

Befoe scrollin down..do hear teh song...U wld notice tht teh music as if always suddenly drops n thn rises wid slow motion,as if dragin teh music forward n bckward...
U wld also listen 2 some lady speakin lik a painful sound emergin frm heart...as if a heartbeat...

I jus got a glimpse of a teh follwin while I was hearin this song wid my neckphone at volume to it's brim , durin my sleepy hrs...
I jus picturized it sm how(dunno how...but a drama sort of strted evolvin arnd my eyes...:O)
While teh music strted clingin 2 my ears....It was lik ...
Thrs a bare stage....it's lik a arid barren land...wid sunshine spittin it's Xtreme chemical fusion....
Thn thr comes a man,2 smart...nicely trimmed bear(2 much of retrosexual a being)...thn suddenly a fairy angel kinda blonde walks past him...he strts walkin behind...She luks at him...gives him a kiss on his forehead...The barren land changes into a heavenly paradise...
thn suddenly thr appears Nother smart guy(but clean shaven as metrosexual ones...hehehe)...So she strts walkin behind him...She clutches his hand n thn both strt walkin past r bearded hero...The paradise changes bck to teh barren desert...R bearded man was lik heart broken(n teh lady in bckgrnd singin of heartbeat becomes more clear)...it's lik his body becomes transparent...U can c his heart fallin down frm it's position...He waves his hand 2 stop her(Teh music droppin down sudeenly becomes more audible 2 my ears)...but she jus laughs n strts walkin ahead...It's luks lik his heart is now hangin frm it's original position...n he feelin 2 heavy within to move n stop her(n teh lady singin in bckgrnd of heartbeat becomes more clear)...now suddenly he strts runnin(though he can't walk coz he can't nemore lift up himself)...but she doesn't evn notice him...he feels smthng burnin within...His head strts achin wid sm rage fr teh lady luv...n also sm wht bad fr his sheer luck...
He suddenly strts holdin his head 2 tight...as if stoppin it frm burstin...but thn teh nerves strt oozzin out lik sm reddie-bloodie fleshy tails frm his head...his nerves lik strt burstin frm his head out...they r so pinkish in color tht suddenly blood strts flowin frm his head...He cries out in pain(n teh lady in bckgrnd singin of heartbeat becomes more clear...n teh music suddenly droppin down)He still drives,drags himslf 2 hard behind tht merciless lady luv(stil in hope tht she wil atleast fal pity n say smthng to releive r majnu)...but she doesn't evn turn bck...
He atlast falls down wid tears protruding frm his eyes...N slowly as teh music gets dimmer...there appear 2 frames on teh stage...One showin teh gorgeous fairy lady Ngaged in weddin ceremony 2 tht smart guy...n teh other side of stage showin the old grief stricken man dyin in pain n slowly his body gettin soaked in blood...n teh music dies out...
Mayb John Keats wld hav envisioned it more beautifully,atleast not as dreadly as mine!!! ;)

Weird , Uncanny was me??? :O

It's was 4th sem fr me n Madie,They used 2 teach Database designs,normalization n stuff but nvr went to sql scriptin n practical aspects n al....U c my Coll. walas wanted us 2 b gud Algo designers n not gud coders...thts wht they still liv up to I beleive...it's gud but thn I felt bored wid no tint of hands on Xperience wid programmin in SQl....so decided 2 join NIIT...So used to go fr it in weekendz...it was jus initial phase of my joinin tht r minor Xams knocked my door...I prepared gud fr database n specially I was feelin mor confident ovr others in my class though My profile till thn was 2 low(had sufferred an accident in teh previous sem n ended up wid 6 as my SGPA :( )Newayz...my Xam went gud . I was atleast confident tht I wld score highest thn evrybdy in coll. in databse Management Program.But thn I scored 9/15...it was jus shockin fr me whn I heard bout it...I didn't reveal it 2 nebdy but I cldn't evn walk a inch...it was smthng I cldn't digest fr long...smhow I went n tuk teh paper...I checked it n found one answer unchecked n other one misinterpreted by my mam...I went 2 her in teh middle of her distributin papers 2 others...she was a bit annoyed but thn I wanted 2 rest in peace fr teh rest day...So it was tht I scored 12/15...But teh thng is I cldn't score 100%...I came across my mistek tht I had missed out sm points coz I tuk teh question at a macro level...n failed 2 explain teh answer in depth..though I knw teh answer but I thght my mam wld understnd whot I wanted 2 express...but she wanted complete in detail n she sticked 2 it...

I felt bad...2 bad tht wanted 2 hurt myself...It was lik I felt tht I had grwn sm sort of ovrconfidence within wch was hamperin my studies...I was also sry fr myself since my last sem had been really worse at scorin gud sgpa..n I wanted to lift myself up wid gud marks...I felt I shld b punished...I wished to bang my head smwhr...but cldn't,thr were frndz al round teh whole day...
Thn at 3.30 arnd Nisha said she ws goin 2 her Lg's house at Mayur Vihar n wanted company since me n mudit also used to paas thru teh same root...So, we headed teh bus I guess(don't remember but usually we preferred BUS more thn askin lift frm teh car passers by n roadies :P)...So reached Nisha's house...met her aunty n thn we left fr r homes...was feelin confused,bad n sm sort of dizziness...so asked him to walk fr a while n it was such tht we crossed Mayur Vihars pocket A till we reached teh FlyOvr of PadpadGanj/Mother Diary(whteva U call it...)...Said he , tht he was tired of walkin...I asked him to go fr sippin colddrnk at teh nearby restaurant...he denied...this firangi nvr evr ate a burger frm MacD...coz he felt tht MacD was videshi...though he had al accessories frm USA wch his bro gifted him...but this Guy had sm weird qualitites mor weird thn mine...lik nvr pluckin flower or evn a leaf...nvr used 2 leave nethgn in teh dishes while dinin or at lunch (Unlik me whu used 2 tek a lot but nvr ate whole...smtimes nothin did I eat n al went into Bin...)...though teh above said r gud qualities but thn smtimes felt lik beatin him up whn he used to proove nethgn...nethgn frm ne wrld means nethng...n I mean it...he cld proove nethng to proove tht he was rite...me finally endin up sayin...thik hai yaar tu sahi hai,fine wid me...ab chod de mere bhai.....
So it happened tht he denied 2 go 2 teh restaurant...So finally we sat on teh divider in teh middle of teh flyover...we discussed al crap as we used 2 in coll...we laughed we yelled at teh passers by...Boy!! evry bdy was lukin at us...it was lik evrybdy was starin while passin by...n we were laughin...as if we wanted 2 tell tht how much we Njoyed it wch they were missin out...It was 4.30 arnd whn we sat...at 5.00,suddenly he said hum yaha kyun baithe hain?? I said marne ka man kar raha hai isliye...he said kyun...I said yaar bas kar raha hai thtsy...I wrked so hard n finally cldn't liv up 2 my own expectations...he poked his usual dialogue..."hota hai"..."sab ke saath hota hai"...I laughed...coz I evn knw wht was gone was gone..it cldn't com bck...I jus wanted to mek myslf free frm tht bad tim...so jus turned around teh divider 2 teh other side of teh road...and strted laughin at teh ppl passin by...stred shoutin dunno wht(but nothin sensible I tell U)...jus wanted to feel free..n it was 6.00 whn suddenly Madie said "Oh! shit mere papa yahan se agar paas kar gaye to waat laga denge meri"...though I had no fear...but still I had 2 spit smthng hence..."Oh! shit mere bhi bhaiya yahin se jayenge agar dekh liya to mom-dad ko bata denge phone karke..aur woh meri waat laga denge...":D
thn I said chod na yaar..."ki farak painda hai aayenge to aacha hi hai,tujhe yahinse pick kar lenge,warna tujhe abhi flyovr se utarna padega phir tujhe rickshaw buk karna padega..itni haasles kyun lene ka yaar...:P"...I was laughin n he was sayin..."kyaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAA tu pagal ho gaya haiii"...by this tim it was 6.20..n it was goin 2 get dark...finally both got up..n waved bye...I caught nother bus n he,a rickshaw...went home n slept fr teh nxt 3hrs..until my bro woke me up n said..it's 10.00 pm ...won't u hav dinner?? I said I wasn't feelin well....thn went bck 2 sleep again..but woke up at 11.00 n finally strted revisin DBMS concepts frm scratch again...but thn felt sleepy after 3 hrs or so...so went bck 2 sleep again...Tough I scored B+(80%) in DBMS in teh end...but it wasn't enough fr me...so tried again n finally got my Oracle certification "Fundaments Of SQL" cleared by teh strt of teh nxt sem...
BWT sry 2 Maddy fr playin wid ur name as Madie...kyaaaaaaaAAAAAaa bache ki jaan lega kya..thoda sa hi to chnge kiya hai??...yaar miss al those dayz...those bacth outins 2 Malls n appu ghar fr each n evry occasion...wish al get settled down in NCR...:)
Aur tu..yaad hai na...ki INDIA mein hi job karni hai tujhe..I mean milke company kholni hai yaad hai na...ya bhul gaya...bhul gaya hai to bol...wahan aake yaad dila dunga...:X...aur waise bhi net pe humne decide kiya tha ki web space kharidenge movies share karne ke liye...kya hua uska...kanjus firangiiiiiiiiIIII :X

Dream Dream Come Again!!

TTTTTTTTThis is whot I saw when I closed my eyes at 2:45 am on 20:04:2007...I generlly don't remeber dreams but this is whot is still persistin...This dream occurred coz mayb since few dayz I was feelin vry lonesm...thr was a hell lot of wrk I was busy into...used to com home late n thn nobdy to talk wid coz my roomate as ussual busy on phone wid his GF al teh tim...so jus used switch on to FM...but thn alwayz those deadly songs al teh time made me feel mor lousy...n finnaly it so happened tht I got addicted to one song of Namastey London--"Yehi Hota Pyaar Hai kya" fr few of my sleepless nites...I stored it my cell phone n made it a continuous play...n went to sleep by hearin it on n on repeatedly...
I was feelin lik hell out here...
oh!! bout my dream...here it is :O

It was lik I was workin in office n suddenly I remembered tht whole June is a vacation fr me as per culture of r office as it used to b in coll. I logged on to air deccan n found tht there were no seats available for a round trip frm June 01 to June 30.Thn logged on to sm other flight site(don't remember wch one)..n got my tickets buked fr 10,500 bucks..Though it wasn't economical fr me but thn I wanted 2 be home as sun as possible...after bukin my tickets I felt as if Y cldn't June b so near ...or cld it be so tht I can hav teh "Time Tunnel" device tht Hermione had in Harry Potter...But thn in no tim I was suddenly at railway station n saw my Dad comin up to me...I touched their feet n thn we headed 2wards home...but as sun as I strted walkin out of station...I turned bck n hugged my Dad n sort of cried out within...He cldn't understand it but thn suddenly...
I was in teh midst of barren desert with so much of glistenin daylite(I guess mayb coz I hav watched teh latest video of linkin park--'Wht I've becom' many a times)
I entered my house...n...there was my mom sittin on chair...She welcomed me home...I asked her whr my sis was...she said she's sleepin it's 5.30 am by now(Boy!! thn how come it's soooo much of daylite outside)...
Thn nxt mornin I woke up at home n it was saturday...n on monday I had my physics final Xam n on tuesday I had Maths final Xam(dunno fr wch class)...n I gat a feelin tht I haven't prepared nethng fr teh Mathematics one...so I opened a page...n there was smthng regardin type of addresses tht we used to study in English paper fr writin formal n informal letters(Gosh!! wht r these addresses to do wid maths)...Thn I chked fr left out pages...they were so much to read n finish tht my head strted whirling...n finally decided to stay awake whole day n nite of saturday n thn devote teh rest 24 hrs of sunday to physics... removed al teh watches frm my rum...coz they were disturbin me...I talked 2 my mom bout this n thn she said..."Dimaag kharab ho gaya hai tumhara...itna padhoge to pata chala Xam mein pahonch hi nai paoge or else wahin pe paper dete dete so jaoge..."...I argued tht I hav to complete teh sylallbi nehow or else I wld fail...N i don't want to suffer tragedy...She scolded me n said "Chup chap man laga ke padho n timely so jaana...jitna padh sako utna padh lena...saal bhar main jo nai padha , tum kaise expect karte ho ki woh 24 hrs mein tum aachi tarah prepare kar loge..."...so I went bck bowin my head down to my rum...N thn it was lik I was goin out of my house coz my holidayz were ovr...thn as sun as I strted movin out of my house, my mom strtd cryin...I went near her n asked "pehle to kabhi nai roye , aap jaate waqt hamesha hanste hanste bhejte ho...aaj achanak kya ho gaya..."..she said..."Kuch nai...tum jao...aur apna khayal rakhna...aur khane peene ka dhyan rakhna"...so I headed out after touchin moms n dads feet...n sudenly I was at airport...n I was headin towards teh Bus...I waved thm bye n while I reached teh bus...I felt bored again...I saw thm out of teh glasses of teh airport...n boarded teh bus...but as sun as I boarded teh bus I strted weepin...Boy!! I had nvr done tht...but tht day I was , n inroder to hide myslf...I went to a corner of teh bus n strted erasin teh tears...few passengers whu were near me were lukin at me...they seemd numb,dumb,gazed n on teh whole morons type...wid no signs of smpathy widin...N suddenly I woke up whn my cook ranged teh bell n I gat up to open teh door...I saw teh watch n it was 9.30...thght ki it's late but thn rememberd ki it's saturday...thght ki June is comin sun fr Njoyin vacations but thn found tht I'm no more a coll. lad,I've grown up to b a professional to face teh dreadly realities of lif...U c...teh point is how hlpless I felt whn I found tht whteva I had seen was a dream but not reality...I can't hav al these tht I saw in dream ne more...infct I can't hav tht dream nemor...:(

Namaste London!!!

Heyyyyyyy!! long tim no blog...As sun as I came bck to my PC I first srted scannin ur blog n only 2 find tht U havn't ritten nethng in recent....:(---> this is whot my sis told me...sry dear....but U c I didn't get tim to pay my head,hands eyes n ears to this funny bloggin n al...:P

Newayz...so this is my 2nd bollywud movie this year...teh first I saw was a dreadly n painful Xperience...I wathced "I C U" on neu years eve...coz thr was nothin more recent available to watch out at ne theatre nearby...It was a real pain in my ass I tell U....I mean it was teh most borin Xperinece after tht bloddy shit named "Phir hera Pheri"...I wish if I cld write a buk on my ill Xperiences tht I felt while watchin tht shit peice of stuff...

Newayz...my PL was gifted wid a baby son n hence we al team members deserved a treat...So, we headed to Shipra Mall...we were hungry after dayz wrk...so we headed towards teh fud court....filled r bellies...but after reachin 2nd flr becam hungry again...SO, sm of thm snagged a bucket of chicken Zinger...n rest of us since vegeterian smeared r throat wid coke n scoops...
Thn it was movie tim...so the majority decided to watch Namaste London...coz teh other movies released in hollywud were all seen by me n sm of my teammates...So Ntered teh theatre (offcourse after purchasin teh tickets fr teh same :O)...So it al strted wid r machiavella chracter Akshay Kumar stridin out of teh car [pata nai kaunsi thi par offocurse teh Indian director , I tell U wld hav med it a point to advertise tht evn in his interviews or so...] dressed in complete as if goin to becom bakra wid teh lady love Katrina Kaif [this is wht we term r frndz whu go fr marryin only to end up in carryin tht wife named suitcase(this is wht my PM thnks is teh best suited term) fr their whole lif whr eva they go...:P]...But as sun as they enterd teh church there was Nother man dressed up same as Akshay Kumar standin near teh preist n smilin at r barbie doll [ this is wht Katrina is :P ]...Now teh whole picture was clear to me...seriouslty I tell U...these Indian directors r so humble,decent,simpelton,tomfools U c....jus at one glance I knw tht Akshay kumar is teh best man n now he wil lend teh lady to tht firangi side actor [dunno his name coz nat interested :D ] ...n thn there wld b flashbck kinda thng...wch wld tek us 2 teh past n Xplain us how al this happened...I mean how both r Indian actor n actress fell in luv but thn situations changed as per whims n fancies of r director ...n finally katrins marryin 2 tht firangi...but thn I also knw tht as sun as katrina wld b given teh ring to poke into tht firangis fingAr...she wld feel guilty bout herself [ typial Indian panorama U c] n brk this weddin ceremony n rush bck 2wards r Akshay Kumar...I kmw this wld haapen...coz these Indian directors can't hlp it endin up teh stry as fairy tales wch end wid a note..."N they lived happily eva after"...
N U knw whot!!...this is whot Xactly happened...but teh thng tht shcoked me was teh end part where teh bride is to show her williness by sayin "Yes I do"...n she says no...n tears crawl al ova her face...n she runs away....nai nai wait...this isn' teh schockin part,it's yet 2 com...while runnin...shes as per tradition al in her best white weddin gown/dress[I get confused evry tim I c such marriage :(] was runnin out of teh church...n teh firangi was behind her...teh point tht shcoked me was teh director left evry clue to mek me beleive tht this runnin n chasin session was copied frm "Runaway Bride-Julia Roberts"---yaks 2 these Indian directrs whu can't apply their own creativity...
Now teh funny n most funny part tht I felt were :
whn my barbie doll n her parents come to India to search fr her a groom...
Teh 1st one they meet is a big fan of Rabbi Shergil as if dyin hard to get Ntry into amercian Idol so tht he can snatch teh Britneys offer 2 Sanjay Malakar fr revivin her career again...
Teh nxt they meet is a shit peice of funny guy..whu irritates U n even makes U mock at him,laugh at him,beat him,kick him [I'm confused atleast whot I feel while I watched him]...he has a Laptop wch he uses to determine teh tatse of ppl he meets[wht they eat how much they eat]...then creates sm flowcharts thn analayses teh comapatibilty both physically [lolllllllllzzzz...:P] n mentally....thn tries 2 figure out whether r lady [I mean barbie doll,sry Kat I forget this title at times...:P] is fit fr him or not...thn he comes up wid Nother clause in wch they both wld go watch a comedy movie n both wld chk whu laughs at wch scene n thn decide teh compatibility facto again...hmmm!! kick him...screw him...grrrrrrrrrr!!!
Teh nxt they meet is a big big big fan of teh K-serials of ekta kapur [ya ya go ahead as above said wid her also...]...he speaks evry bit of shit 3 times as if teh camera man missed to reveal teh Xpressions,emotions n all stuff wch teh director prepared to educate teh follish K-serial-addcited audience...
Rest I feel bored to speak bout...watch teh movie...n plz do suffer atleast a lil bit as I did durin the part whn akshay kumr tells my barbie doll whn she ditched her , tht he'll wait till teh end of his lif fr her...n whn they both turn old he'll come to her n speak sm punjabi romatic wrds...
"Oye baby main tainu pyaar karda.."...bUT I was wrng...akshay kumar spoke smthng diff...though he spoke punjabi but smthgn diffrent...I didn't get teh meanin til 15 minutes or so...katrina jus befoe her weddin day translates tht punjabi to hindi...it was I remember.."Asli pyaar ka matlab haasil karna nai hota..."...HUH!! this barbie doll of mine nvr spoke punjabi in teh whole movie...infct she acted as if whe was jus born to punjabis but a was tru british ...but thn how teh heck did she get teh meanin of this punjabi romantic pharse wch akshay kumar tried to flirt at her...whew! GOD knws coz I dunno knw..I guess evn director doesn't knw..evn Kat doesn't knw...it's al teh dealin betwen teh GOD n teh script writer...
BTW did I tell U...I luved teh songs of this movie..I mean it's been long tim since I stopped hearin bollywud songs...but I sort of got crazy bout the songs of these movie...Especially,
teh heartache "Yehi Hota Pyaar hai kya"...n....n...teh hip hop wala "Cakna Chakna"....n...n...teh soft song "Main jahan Rahun"....n...n...teh others also but nat tht much...

Luv!!! Wht I mean is...

It's a disorder in faith,feelins,in emotions,in mental state,in heartbeat,infct U'll find tht it also has side effcts on teh seven deadly sins...
Teh symptoms are tht u become blind in al teh above said cases..N wht I feel is if these symptoms don't occur thn it's not luv..it's smthng else wch I dunno bout...else it lasts fr evr til Ur brain gets switched off coz I feel it's teh brain tht meks al arrangement[not teh heart by ne means as teh fantasies around speak bout]...
Wht I mean to say is whn U fall fr smbdy...U jus get smthng masked ovr ur brain...u feel lik teh person u r fallin fr is teh best person u've evr met....though ppl may b mockin at him/her ,tought ppl don't find easy to talk 2 him/her....but U strt thinkin teh other way round...U jus becom bilnd ...U feel tht those ppl are shit ...U evn start becomin more daring...U evn wish
to rebel n fight fr the cause...Ovr teh ages it's becom a fct tht luv is blindness n nothin else...n it's pefectly a normal behaviour , nothin wrng in it...but thn I felt it sound true by lukin at ppl whum we frndz used to mock n tease at...but thn they got GFs n BFs..this happened only coz luv is blind...this happened coz luv sees no bounds n nethng...whumevr U thnk an asshole may not be teh same frm sm others point of view...Since , luv is blind so U strt takin evrythng related to Ur beloved one in a positive way , U don't find nethng wrng as teh surroundin or smbdy else may feel .
Evn if teh person U luv is sufferin frm some disease lets say smthng more big thn tht wch is incurable , U feel lik curin it by ne means possible so tht Ur luv doesn't feel bad or inferior or sad or nethng wch meks him/her feel unhappy . Smitmes U feel pity n wish teh disease gets transferred to you so tht Ur beloved one lives happily fr evr .
Thrs some super natural power wct I beleive turns teh person blind whn he/she falls in luv fr smbdy...it's lik teh person whum U fall for has sm sort of hypnotizin power...wch U get affected by...N thn U stop carin bout wht teh heck teh wrld thnks bout U or Ur luv...U becom so much of blind in faith tht U trust him/her more thn teh ppl [maybe parents or sm other gaurdian] whum U've spent teh most valuable tim of ur lif....But thn U feel , teh day U fell in luv was teh beginnin
of Ur memorabilia...U strt feelin teh pain of the other person more than him/her even when
he/she is stable and you cry for him/her . Evn if U get attracted to smbdy else but stil stay with him/her without any regrets..thn I don't feel it may be termed as duty but it's luv wch meks U feel tht Ur attraction is jus another term to infatuation n nothin else...
I don't conclude but al I beleive is teh stmt --- "Luv is blind" ...is 101% unfeigned n evry human being in general faces this disease smday .

Biker keeda intruded within...wanna becom a Roadie One day....

Huh!! I finally now can ride a bike...uhh!! ya I'm serious ...I'm late but thn nvr knew tht bikin was so easy n simpleton a stuff to drive...Teh day started wid Mudit rinigin teh bell at 1000 n wakin me up to go fr buyin a computer fr him frm Nehru Place...So, got ready by 1100 n thn reached teh IT-Hub of NCR by 1200...Entered into a shop wch had those posters of Duo COre Intel chipset...Teh presentation was gud hence got in to chk out teh rates of computer accessories...Teh rates were pretty reasonable...Thn wen't to teh renowned shop frm wch I usually buy teh accessories...got teh rates of teh gadgets frm thr evn ...matched n found tht teh difference was about 2000 buks in all...Since Mudit wanted 2 invest much on teh performance n space...hence we thtgt of investin less on keybrd n mouse along wid cabinet...So, at first bought teh cabinet n a combo of kewybrd n mouse frm Iball ...thts my favrite in terms of styled n economic peices of accessories...But still got flatterred n ended up in buyin teh latest of cabinet n a laser mouse(it's faster thn optical) n a multimedia keyboard...thn headed 2wards my favrite stall 2 buy the other thngs....So, got teh latest processor wid 3.0 ghz Intel duo core,160 gb hdd seagate, 1 gb Kingston Ram,Intel 946 chipset...Got it assembled frm teh one referred by a known one thr ...I saw teh assemblin first time..Boy it was so simple tht I felt sry fr Mudit endin up in payin 100 bucks fr 5 minutes of assemblin...It all did cost arnd 21,000...Thn saw teh pendrive of 1gb being sold at mere 475 bucks n tht evn frm kingston...So, got one fr myself...boy it's so tiny as teh size of a scroller in teh mouse but stil pays 1gb of space 2 U...boy!! hats off 2 teh optimization technics evolvin alround...As sun we came out saw my roomie Arjit comin upstairs wid his comp....His comp has becom sick since few weeks....since his comp was wch served as server fr lan n net connectivity...Hence I wasn't ablt to surf net frmm home...I knw I knw I can understnd...but sry 2 al those whu wait fr me al nite...but c I can't help it...[:P]
He got his comp repaired only to end up knwin tht his motherboard was 2 be changed...he's got a laptop also...wid a syaxy configuration[576 ram , 40gb hdd,dvd rom,2.8 ghz]...I made fumes evolve frm his adapter wire while watchin "skeleton key(borin but kate hudson is gorgeous n teh cklimax as well)" on his laptop...So, he was thr 2 buy an adapter evn....got teh adapter but decided 2 get is comp repaired at his hometown at an economic rate...By thn we were left out wid buyin a UPS fr Mudit...surfed some shops n bought teh one packeged by Microtek at 1620 bucks...Thn headed 2wards home....Since arjit was 2 travel by bus to his home...I insisted him to gimme his CPU so tht I can head it 2wards home coz I was 2 b travellin thru bike wid Mudit...Boy I was a damn fool to help him out by askin him 2 lend me his CPU to home...I realised it only after leetin him jump into teh bus....it was far frm bus stop to teh bike...n I got teh foolishness smilin before me all teh way 2 teh bike...Hmmmm!! neway I thtght it wld be oki after we sit onto teh bike...But this guy Mudit has such a bike...wch doesn't hav nethng termed utility except sporty in teh same...It doesn't ahv a carrier at teh bck as teh old bikes do hav....So, I had 2 pick tht CPU ovr my lap n sit at teh bck....GOD Y didn't I knw 2 ride a bik ...else I cld hav med Mudit sit at teh bck n suffer wid tht shit peice of useless JunkBox :X . After a while I called up Arjit to knw whether his went passed away or is still; thr or whrevr he is....But tht guy,my roomie...I know him since 2 years now....he wld nvr let go off teh peice of cake 2 nebdy at ne cost (evn me his roomie) if it comes to his profit n all...He jus said tht he is far away...I asked him whr he is exactly ..but tht cunnin fellow only replied tht he is far away....My sheer luck tht I had to pull tht junkbox al teh way 2 home...meanwhile I asked Mudit 2 wait fr a while at near CSM...I was feelin hungry n thristy...So, went fr a plate of Aloo-Chat...Boy it was so spicy n all n only aloos flodded n nothin else except some spicy masala n all...ater gulpin a peice or 2...I gave it a beggar whu passed by r side...Then went fr sippin a lemonade ...As sun as we weer 2 ride bck home...thr came teh same beggar askin fr more...I said him "Khane ko diya tha na...khush raho jitna mile hai"...Said he..."babu utne khane se kya hoga..."...Said me..."paise se bhi to khaoge hi ya pee ke talli howoge..."...Said he..."sahab bacche bhukhe hain.."...I jus wished of givin him a nice thrash...."To apne bacchon ke liye bachana tha na khana...itna saara kha gaye....aur bacchon ke liye socha tak nai"..By tht time Mudit also became furious...n said to leave him on his fate n get on to teh bike....I guess thtsy they r beggars...they jus don't thnk of teh nxt moment...but jus always liv in teh present...It's gud to stay in present..but thn we shld be careful bout teh future evn coz thts wht where we r headin at...
Neways Mudit asked me fr Jalebis at sector-11...he said they were gud ones...So, went thr n had some grams of thm...then he purchased some kabab frm a shop wch ppl call as "Aunty wale kabab" ..due 2 an aunty servin thm al as well as mockin at teh poor Uncle always in frnt of evrybdy...wch is real fun to watch ...Thn reached 2 office....Boy did I mention tht I bought a pendrive frm Kingston of 1GB wid only 460 bucks....Bot it's thin as a reed an small than teh size of my thumb...So, reached 2 office 2 collect some software n study material stuff fr my home as well as fr Mudit's new PC ....N so plugged teh Pen Drive,got stuff feeded 2 it n thn surfed fr neu scraps at orkut n emails at mail boxes...No scrap n no mails...seemed lik evrybdy hibernatin in their cosy cosy beds on weekends n only we roam al day n nite...[:(]
The Curtain Raiser********************************Tan Tan Tanan
So, while gettin out of teh office...I asked Mudit if he cld help me ridin a bike...He put teh keys in the bike n said me..."Are ye lo chabi aur chlao...easy hai..."..I knew about teh gear n clutch[I knw bout thm in teh 4 wheelers also]...But nvr evr tried to handle thm by my own...So, put teh gear n strted on...after puttin on teh 1st gear n releasin teh clutch...teh bike stopped suddenly pushin me bck n forth...Boy I knw teh solution evn fr this thgh I nvr had rode a bike...It was only tht I was 2 sun releasin the clutch...So, I relesed it vry crefully n finally ended up wid 2 rounds of rotation round my office boundry...Finally asked Mudit to hop on n me dropin him to his home....Said he.."Yaar aaj pehli baar phat rahi hai...I'm scared"...Said me.."darr mat mai hun naa...agar kuch hua to main bear karunga hospital ke charges"...He said "chal aaj tu chala jo hoga dekha jayega...koi tension nai..."....So, rode vry carefully,smoothly,at an average of 60kmph ,met many humps n jerks in between...Said me to Mudit.."Kyun peeche baith ke maza aa raha hai..soch in humps se muhjhe kitne bumps padte hain free ke...aaj tu bhi le maze..hihahaha(Typical DON style)"...Finally rode home thru teh busy streets of NOIDA-Ghaziabad border,broke many a traffic signals in between...But at teh end reached home safely....Felt so happy tht messaged frndz bout this,sis bout this...thn finally called my Mom...Boy I was so excited(didn't feel this whn I got my Degree@convo)..Said me to get me a cruiser Bike...She said..."Alrite alrite...but ek din bik chalane se proficient nai bante...abhi ssekho aachi tarah se....but U knw delhi aur noida ki sadkon pe bike nai chalane de sakti..."...I argued(Boy I felt it loosin my excitation within)...I said..."log bike bhi chalate hain ,4 wheeler bhi chalate hain...aise darte rahe to kuch bhi nai chala sakunga..."..She said.."haan 4 wheeler dila denge bas,par bike nai...bahot risky hota hai"...Boy she realy cares fr me a lot more thn herself...I'm far away frm her but it's not me whu feels teh separation but it's she whus seems lik prayin fr my wellness day n nite...I hav heard my sis revealin me bout her cryin secretly whnevr she scolded me...Boy shes such a lady whu presents herself to me n my sis as if b strng always...but she herself is so soft within tht alwayz breaks down after some tim whnevr she feesl lik she has hurt us by scoldin....I said..."Plz plz plz ....bike dilwa do...maybe not now...but I'll proove 2 be efficient within this month...Now I need it befoe myself within this year sooner or later...so thnk as much as U can...U hav plenty of tim..."...She said..."accha fine thik hai...aur bata tabiyat kaisi hai...kam kaisa chal raha hai...n all tht crap "..Boy Moms asks so much bout U ...wch we evn nvr find to ask ourself bout...Maybe it's rite tht she asks me once a week hence, evn I get answers 2 myself while replyin 2 her...Wel bik ho na ho...I acheived somthng who bhi khel khel mein....I mean mazak mazak mein...I tell U I nvr thgth bik ridin was such an easy stuff but it is...Now gonna sleep....,bye Gnite...

2007-Incomin...seriously costly....

So, teh 31st of 2006 strted at 1100 whn I wok up...by teh incomin cal of my frnd Raghav...He's a real gud techie wid a lil bit of happy-go-lucky attitude . His mere precence meks U laugh . So, He was goin 2 Singapore 3 dayz leter , teh dayz whn I wld be busy at my office . So, he said tht he was comin up meet me n my other coll. frndz . So, got ready by 1200 . Felt burnin within due to teh long 14 hrs of hunger strike (coz had dinner at 2200 day befoe) . So, as sun as we decided 2 go 2 teh mall our dear owner caled up fr the rent n fr wch he wld be avialable til 15oo only . Hence me n my roomie hurried on bike 2 ATM to cash out rent . We got teh money n headed 2wards Delhi to find tht he ad left fr teh day though we were 15 minutes early . I caled him up , so he said me to drop teh money in his son's hands who was stil at home . So, gev teh money n as sun as we were headin bck , Raghav called up tht he was waitin at teh shipra mall fr lunch . I insisted him to hav his lunch coz me wld be reachin late thr ....aaahhh I'm gettin bored of continyuin 2 tel yu bout this neu year stuff....cut teh crap....jus to brief U tht it was as borin as nethng...I met raghav waved him farewel...thn Mudit my colleague came down to us...So, thgth of gettin into teh pub...So, went to Black at pacific mall...saw a couple of ladies waitin fr entry...as sun as we were headin 2 approach thm...some dumb,lousy lukin morons came in between n snatched r cup of tea...n we stud thr lik dumb #%^#$^$%...neways all teh fud courts th rwere full....it was 11.00 by nite...Was feelin hungry...so waited fr a vacancy at a Chinese restaurant thrwhos name I've forgot n whos name I don't wish 2 remember coz it's got teh worst servin tht ne fud court can serve...Teh choupsey was evn more borin 2 eat as compared to teh ppl thr except fr one lady whu was thr at teh counter ...I guess she was gettin ready fr teh disc/pub n maybe waitin fr her boyfreind as sun as she finishes wrk here...So, finished teh dinin reached home at 11.50 pm ...N by tht time there were crackers glowin al round my house ...This is teh first time I saw my community walas being so modern n enthusiastic bout celebratin an occasion...Well this was teh only marvelous thng I found in between 31st-2006 n 1st-2007 ...rest as I qouted befoe it was costly in terms of tim coz' if I wasn't out hangin wid frndz...I wld hav completed my novel "The afghan" by fredrick Frosyth...This one was insisted by Rat...I started it early thn Rat cld...but now she's finished it n I'm stuck at chapter 8 till now...but I wld definately finish it , I beleive one day...